Plugging into Divinity

For the the last couple of weeks have been wonderful for me. It was one of those moments when you feel connected with Divinity and you feel you can achieve anything...

I was just recovering from a phase of struggles at my workplace. Inferiority had got into me and I seemed to have stopped beleiving in myself and my abilities. Everything I did seemed to be going against how I wanted it to be...

But if I look back at those moments now, I can clearly see that it is the mind that plays the games of confidence, triumph when things go "the way you want" and of depression and cascading negative feelings when they don't. Our ever judgemental mind begins to use its prior experience and starts to put things and events together to form new opinions and assumptions even when they are not necessarily true and evident! We plan on the only result we can accept and try to work towards it constantly reminding ourselves about what things can go wrong.

I have lately been trying to convince myself to trust in my own Divinity. The chat I had with Soumya and this book by Wayne Dyer: "There's a Spiritual Solution to Every Problem" have helped me put things into the right perspective.

The conversation I was able to have on the night of Jan 3 with Darshan amazed me. I had never spoken like that before, but then I know why I could that evening. I remember well that I was not judgemental at all, I spoke right from my heart and most importantly, it was one of those rare moments when I did not bother to think of myself.

Well... it is easier said than done! The last couple of days were boring so to say. I have been having a sore throat threatening into a bad cough and cold. Days have been inactive and gloomy so to say. The movies like "Guru" and Harold & Kumar" I have been watching are definetely a cause. But let's see how I catch up and pull the wire around my hip into that socket of Divinity!